Goodreads Doesn't Have It, Data Migration: Mindful As Fuck
This is funny and cute from Emily but I really don't encourage this. It's a pain expression. I appreciate the backup that my pain is valid but if you are well to do, rich, with a strong network, you don't know this pain. Stop playing at knowing it. It's not funny. I am in excrutiating pain. People spending millions if not billions around me while half the time I can't afford food for my cats or myself. It's so fucking disgusting and repulsive it hurts. It's really like the obesity of direct donation where these people are complaining about taking a $5 walk down the street, but they can stuff their face watching me suffer from a passive observation perspective, and not only that, but bond with each other about TV show factoids and quotes making money off it--it's just. Too. Fucking. Disgusting. You can take the walk. $5 does next to literally nothing for me, it says "Your hopes and dreams matter, and your work is important and needed." From the amount of money being made, this is correct, but they won't admit it. That's. Disgusting. That is where my excruciating pain comes from. How. Fucking. Disgusting. This is. I really don't encourage this if you don't live this. These people just need to be gone without a trace, I mean it. The world would be a better place without people making money off of someone victimized to this extent and giving none to the source. I had to reach out to a literal "Japanese memory" institution when I was in Washington about an actual half Japanese person who couldn't even find an accessible shower walking right next to a Buddhist center that comes 100% from Japan. Not only no reply, but this response from the Buddhist community. It was all white people. Buddhism, especially Zen Buddhism, is 100% from Japanese people. You need to show respect to the origins. When I said, "Please help this person to get an accessible shower" they moved the cheese it and said "people won't do it". I found a Sol shower and a forest nearby that they could have just spend $30 for, ~$100 for a portable barrier. The irony is they just had a ritual for "bathing the Buddha" while this person was literally suffering unbathed next door. True hypocrisy. Talk about inaccurate representation. Trying to represent while completely butchering what they were supposed to be representing, like some sort of fraudulent, disjointed mathematics devoid of any deeply linking ecological/somatic sense to its application. just like the Intercept raising up to 430k and when I ask them if they have any insight at all into chokepoints in the fundraising pipeline in the Washington area, including trafficking behavior of people coming into the state and getting records they never had before and these being used as traffickers are on research evidenced to use them, to drive them into the streets--women literally saying "that's one for the streets" to their professional coworkers who refuse to have sex at work (isn't it ironic, you're called a wh*re when you don't have sex), that's the most effing disgusting thing I've ever seen--but then they give a canned, impotent response that they have no insight into this fundraising when it directly affects Gaza. It's like the obesity of professionalism. Get off your ass and figure it out if you're paid 100x more than the people you're allegedly representing. Seriously. It's too disgusting. If all these people making money off of people while the actual people can't even afford food for their cats disappeared the world, I am sure, would be 100% a better place. It's too horrific. Unable to donate $5. It's really the obesity of immorality. Get off your ass and become a better person. $5 is like taking a walk down the street. Take the walk down the street.
This kind of thing is heartbreaking because it's not in line with mindful speech. I don't really encourage it but I appreciate the backup that this is an expression of pain. However, people who have the network, money, and position should not be expressing equal pain expressions. My situation is seriously disgusting, horrific, and unforgiveable. It's not a cute, quirky trend to show off yourself. Reminds me how after Spopee all the people were like "American spirits!" and native this and native that, while people were dying because they didn't have enough rations. If all that was gone I swear the world would be a better place. It's too. Fucking. Disgusting.
Your millionth reminder that before greed, the brain usually lights up with lust. This looks like an impulse control disorder of the moral sense that starts with lust and becomes greed. It's too. Fucking. Disgusting.
Anyway. Mindful speech is part of Buddhism but two instead of one stars for backing up people like me. But it's really not funny or cute. Stop acting like this if you are not being targeted by illegal financial chokepoints and sheer cancerous greed.
I strive for mindful speech and I'm compassionate with myself when the burden of pain collapses under the sheer, pathetic wimpiness of my horrific support system, which is it pretty much collapsing every time at this point from sheer corrupt incompetence riddled with envy and narcissism. But if you don't have that problem, STOP.
I know at least Thich Nhat Hanh had similar suffering and he still had mindful speech. That doesn't make him a better person. He honestly was really boring and I don't want to be like him. I think you need to take more action in the world. But I still can love, adore and look up to him and see that at least when it came to this he had a stronger network that allowed him to have more strength. I will always remember the story of how the French and communist forces knocked down the temple's housing up to seven times and every time he rebuilt. That is literal torture. It's horrific. They knew he was rebuilding and did it anyway. That is. Horrifying. He still kept his mindful speech. However, he had a competent, nonracist sangha. I am fully compassionate to myself and remove anyone who gets in the way of that. But if you don't have that problem, you're disgusting. I mean it.
I'm in excruciating pain. From the looks of it, Emily Horn at least has a strong publication network to a capitalist friendly publisher. Some of the Palestinian forces don't even have that. Pay $5. It does basically nothing. It's like a walk down the street. It just says "I support your hopes and dreams, and this pain matters." They can't even do that, then make that kind of money on it on a lust to greed circuit. It's. Too. Fucking. Disgusting. I don't have the support network to not say that. This person looks like they do.
When possible, don't break Thich Nhat Hanh's heart. He spent his whole life trying to be a good role model and did phenomenal work. It's really not possible for me many days. And these people are largely why. If I had $5 from all the people who shorted me, I would not be in this much pain with this impotent of a support network. End of story. End. Of. Goddamn. Story. It's too disgusting.